She is lost yet chasing for her dreams

unfragmented thoughts

She was chasing for her dreams                                                                                            Gasping for her breath                                                                                                          And she can’t breathe.

She kept on running,                                                                      …

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White walls i will miss you
Empty sheets of paper i bid you goodbye
To my ever reliable pen , thank you
And to my pillows, i’m sorry for leaving you..

White walls inside this small room
thank you for letting my imagination roam free
for letting me go to the moon and play with the stars
thank you for letting me forget, even if it’s just for a moment
how crippled, how broken i really am

Empty sheets of paper, in my big red notebook
thanks for listening to me , when no one cared to
thanks for letting me paint the world in hues of the brightest yellow
Thanks for never judging me, for never yelling at me whenever i do something wrong

To you my pen i’m reluctant to say goodbye, you gave my thoughts a sense of reality
you helped me write the words i could not say without stuttering
you broke the chains that held me in deep pain and solitude
you made my world bigger and better, and for that i thank you

Now to bid farewell to the ones closest to me
sorry my dear pillows if I forsake thee
But do not think for a moment that i am ungrateful, for every tear you caught that i let fall
So now i’ll stop for fear that i am too prosaic
but then again Thank you my pillows, for caring for me like a friend

Maybe you’ve noticed why i’m only seeing goodbye
To object that most people disregard and pass by
the answer to that is simple, for in my little room
in my life as a cripple, i have never once felt love from other people
most treat me with disdain but that’s better than being pitied. they forget that i have a heart that is stout and a mind that is unequaled.
but now they’ll never know just how brilliant i am
because now i’m giving in to deaths alluring call
a song to lay rest to my tired body
to my tired soul.


High school.. MEH

High school wasn’t that memorable for me, it was just a phase in my life albeit one that took four years to get through.  I wasn’t excited about meeting my barkadas or going out with my classmates and loitering around the city. I have nothing against the people who claim and glorify high school as “THE MOST MEMORABLE TIMES OF THEIR LIFE” for me  high school isn’t that special, i could even say it’s very dull and repetitive.

High school is the endless cycle of cleaning classrooms =>listening to  teachers=> eating lunch=> cleaning  classrooms=>listening to teachers=> cleaning  classrooms =>  home 🙂 repeat and rinse.

In high school  you start making connections with other people, connections that are not that really important, though there are those people who have really close friends but seriously in high school you meet hundreds of people but how many of those people do you still actually remember, and these close friends only develop because of their proximity and the length of time you spend with them ( 4 years in a box ? ) who wouldn’t establish connections with these people, heck if you were inside a box with only a cactus for company you’d still get attached to that cactus( Cast Away anyone ? 🙂 ). I’m not downplaying the importance of making “Friends” or the value of these “Friendships”, because there are really those who are lucky enough to meet and make genuine friends, friends that have your back and are willing to take a bullet for you.

Take a moment and reminisce about the amount of backbiting and intrigue present in the bumbling high school society, you’d be surprised on just how frequent backbiting, bullying and betrayals regularly occur ( keep in mind that the reason for these actions are petty and laughable) I mean participating in High school politics/ Drama can be as cut throat and treacherous as National Politics. You see people being ostracized for standing up to the people who’re considered as the alphas. you see just how cruel high school can be whenever you read suicide  stories, stories that lay bare on just how  snide comments and pranks have damaging effects on individuals whose only crime is being different. These people deserve better, but because of our limited minds and shallow perception of what is acceptable in high school we only pay little attention to their stories.

High school is really important not because it is the “best time of our life” but it serves as a representation of society, we get our first glimpse of what and how certain ideals are like in the real world in high school. It serves as our gateway, our initiation rite to life. So treasure your high school memories not only because you have good ones, but because you did not go into college as ignorant and pathetic individuals who have no grasp on how to interact with other sentient beings.



I love Pokemon, i grew up watching the show, collecting the cards and memorizing the numerous Pokemon names and their evolutions. Yes it is childish but it has a myriad of morals that a child can absorb and hopefully remember when they grow up. yes it may be fictional but the lessons I’ve learned from it are as true as ever. Pokemon has taught me the value of friendship,determination and the trust you must have in the people around and in yourself. The series has spawned numerous stories,games and merchandise. I’m happy and that the series is still progressing but i’m also saddened by the fact that it’s deviating to more absurd paths, anyways wherever the story goes i’ll still be thankful to this show and to the man who made it. Thanks for making my childhood awesome. I’ll always remember the things Ash Ketchum taught me, I’ll remember just how loyal pikachu is, and i’ll never forget Misty,Brock and all the characters that made the story as wonderful as it is. ( though in my opinion alakazam still is the best pokemon ever)

Mr. Satoshi Tajiri




War and why it’s a good thing, although war comes hand in hand in death, it also brings with it a faster tempo in the way that things progress. Yes death does come with it, but we must also accept the fact that death must come to each and everyone of us, but let’s look at this in a different perspective War is unduly described as causing nothing but pain and misery to everyone involved, yes it does cause pain and misery but it also brings with it a kind of unification in the way that people and their governments acts. to give you a proof of what i mean, let’s start with the first World war.


In 1914, the “war of movement” expected by most European generals settled down into an unexpected, and seemingly unwinnable, war of trenches. With machine guns reinforcing massed rifle fire from the defending trenches, attackers were mowed down by the thousands before they could even get to the other side of “no-man’s-land.”

A solution presented itself, however, in the form of the automobile, which took the world by storm after 1900. Powered by a small internal combustion engine burning diesel or gas, a heavily-armored vehicle could advance even in the face of overwhelming small arms fire. Add some serious guns and replace the wheels with armored treads to handle rough terrain, and the tank was born.


In the first days of flight, once a plane left the ground the pilot was pretty much isolated from the terrestrial world, unable to receive any information aside from obvious signals using flags or lamps. This changed thanks to the efforts of the U.S. Army, which installed the first operational two-way radios in planes during the Great War (but prior to U.S. involvement). Development began in 1915 at San Diego, and by 1916 technicians could send a radio telegraph over a distance of 140 miles; radio telegraph messages were also exchanged between planes in flight. Finally, in 1917, for the first time a human voice was transmitted by radio from a plane in flight to an operator on the ground.


With millions of soldiers suffering grievous, life-threatening injuries, there was obviously a huge need during the Great War for the new wonder weapon of medical diagnostics, the X-ray—but these required very large machines that were both too bulky and too delicate to move. Enter Marie Curie, who set to work creating mobile X-ray stations for the French military immediately after the outbreak of war; by October 1914, she had installed X-ray machines in several cars and small trucks which toured smaller surgical stations at the front. By the end of the war there were 18 of these “radiologic cars” or “Little Curies” in operation. African-American inventor Frederick Jones developed an even smaller portable X-ray machine in 1919 (Jones also invented refrigeration units, air conditioning units, and the self-starting gasoline lawnmower).


Women traditionally improvised all kinds of disposable or washable undergarments to deal with their monthly period, all the way back to softened papyrus in ancient Egypt. But the modern sanitary napkin as we know it was made possible by the introduction of new cellulose bandage material during the First World War; it wasn’t long before French nurses figured out that clean, absorbent cellulose bandages were far superior to any predecessors. British and American nurses picked up on the habit, and corporate America wasn’t far behind: In 1920, Kimberly-Clark introduced the first commercial sanitary napkin, Kotex (that’s “cotton” + “texture”). But it was rough going at first, as no publications would carry advertisements for such a product. It wasn’t until 1926 that Montgomery Ward broke the barrier, carrying Kotex napkins in its popular catalogue.


Originally, the discovery of the capabilities of the Penicillium Notatum mold on killing bacteria was made in 1869 by Ernest Duchesne and Sir Alexander Fleming made it popular later or in 1928 with his studies on the matter. However, it was not until 1939 when Dr. Howard Florey’s research was able to prove the effectiveness of penicillin without a shadow of a doubt and with the aid of Andrew J. Moyer he developed the most powerful antibacterial substance in the world. Needless to say, with all the wounded soldiers dying from simple infections, it was about time.


While the original plan for radio waves was to create a device that could concentrate them into powerful blasts (the presumed death ray machine), things took a different turn for this technology. The basis of the radio wave tech can be found back in 1886, but an actual demonstration of a working RADAR system capable of bouncing the radio signal off objects in order to determine their position was made much later on, in 1935 by Arnold F Wilkins.

The jet engine

Ironically, the British scientist Sir Frank Whittle finalized the functioning prototype for jet engines long before the Germans, but the government showed limited interest in the invention and awarded him very low funds. This is the reason why the German army that poured massive funding and manpower into the development of this technology was able to reap the benefits sooner. The Messerschmitt ME 262 (fighter jet) and the Arado Ar 234 (bomber) were among the most feared weapons of the Axis, particularly the former one which was allegedly able to gun down 5 allied planes on average before being destroyed. The principle behind the original jet engines is still used for commercial flights nowadays.

Nuclear power

When you think of nuclear power, the first thing that springs to mind is that it is a source of energy. However, nuclear power plants that we utilize to obtain electricity nowadays originated from the bombs dropped on the Japanese cities of Nagasaki and Hiroshima, namely the Fat Man and Little Boy. Although in theory the scientists of both sides were aware of the potential of the atom, the US managed to succeed in creating a weapon of mass destruction first through the Manhattan project. The debate on whether or not the world would be a better place without atomic power can go on forever, but the truth is that not only would we not benefit from this cheap and clean electrical source, but it is probable that WW2 would have lasted much longer and its end could differ radically.

The original computer

Two coding and decoding machines stand at the foundation of the modern day computer, namely the Enigma and the Lorentz machines. The role of these gadgets was to encode and respectively decode the traffic, which comprised mainly of communications between the German high command and the air, ground and naval forces dispatched. It is necessary to point out that while Enigma was based on a brilliant encryption system, there are more similarities between the Lorentz machines and computers nowadays.

To check out the full list of advancements people made during war just click on the links below 🙂

Given that most of these advancements are military in nature they still are used by people commercially and domestically, these advancements help make our lives easier and more enjoyable. We can liken war to a huge volcanic eruption ,after it’s devastating effects pass, you will find a land that’s very fertile and is a spring of life.
Yes war does come hand in hand with death and suffering but it also serves as an impetus for human change and development.

A physicist decries “quantum woo”

Why Evolution Is True

You may recall the bizarre “Biocentrism” theory of Dr. Robert Lanza, which I’ve discussed before (here, and here, for instance). I’ve also consulted Official Website Physicist™ Sean Carroll, who pronounced biocentrism pretty much a crock. If you want Lanza’s scholarly explanation of biocentrism (and take a Pepto-Bismol first), read this piece he wrote for The American Scholar (shame on that journal!).

Surprisingly, Lanza is a medical doctor and researcher at Wake Forest University in North Carolina, and has some solid scientific accomplishments under his belt. So it’s hard to understand why he’s fallen sway to a woo-laden theory that assures, us, based on quantum physics and the Mystery of Consciousness, that death is merely a figment of our imagination and that, because of the Observer Phenomenon, life creates the universe.

Biocentrism is a baff-gabbley gemisch of nonsense, and one physicist has gotten fed up…

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Life is hard, that’s a fact that almost everybody can agree in, it is fraught with obstacles and distractions that make our life hard and very interesting, we go through the motions of everyday,meeting new people, learning new things and feeling a myriad of emotions that can either make or break our perception of how the day is going. Sometimes we go through significant events that help define us as a human being most of these are happy ones but sometimes we go through dreadful and devastating moments, moments that not only threaten to break our soul but ultimately make us long for doors of death just to seek solace. When these moments come, where should do we turn to ?

1. Religion
We should turn to our religion, simply because our life should be anchored to it. No matter what religion you practice or who your god is , it will still serve as a guiding light, a light that let’s you know what is right or wrong (according to each religions respective tenets and beliefs) it gives us a basic guide in what we should do in times wherein we feel like giving up on the world.You can always count on god to help you pull through the hardest times of your life, you can always count on him to give you solace and warmth whenever you feel like the world and everyone around you becomes so cold.Because a little prayer can be your salvation

Family is and always will be the most basic and trusty support system that the world has to offer(excluding dysfunctional families) these are the people who will always have your back, they won’t judge you, they won’t crucify you for your mistakes, rather they will help you become a better person.They will serve as you inspiration and your biggest fans.

3. Friend/Friends
They are the ones who you feel affinity with, they serve as the spice of your life and at often times serve as your staunchest supporters and biggest critics, they may disagree with you, they may even have heated arguments with you but in the end they will still back you up, whenever you need their help, but a word of caution to all, choose wisely the people you call your friends, for vipers lay within roses.

So if ever you feel like the world is closing in on you, whenever you feel as if everyone hates you turn to any of these three, and you’ll probably find comfort, because remember life is beautiful. cherish it.


Love is this something we really understand ? or are we just grasping at other peoples definitions and claiming them as our own. We go into relationships thinking that we’ll find love,only to get our hearts broken by these supposedly potential partners. After getting our hearts broken, we become bitter and resentful , we start being numb and wary of falling, some of us even end up dying alone and virtually unloved

I am a romantic, I believe in happy endings and relationships that last. I don’t believe in feeling butterflies in my tummy or seeing sparks in the air when you meet that someone, i believe that a good and happy relationship should start from being friends and end up being married to each other. I regret the fact that now in our society ,we love to do things fast and impulsively that’s probably why the relationships we see today are like fireworks they last long enough for one big explosion then they fizzle out and disappear leaving shallow memories that most people remember with bright flashing lights and loud and disturbing sounds. i’d rather have a relationship that’s akin to the sun, it’s always there when you need it and though it is repetitive  and somewhat ordinary , It is CONSTANT. And honestly that’s what i want in a relationship. I want a partner that will be a constant in my life, a person who will serve as a steady source of light that provides warmth and a sense of security in my life, and though the sun may set everyday i can always count on it to be there when i wake up.